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  “Elle, could you come over here for a minute?”

  It’s Dad. And he doesn’t seem nearly as amused as the rest of the room.

  “Um, sure.”

  Jake loosens his grip and nods at my father. “Mr. Matthews.”

  “Kid,” Dad says, his lips a tight line. He takes my hand, pulling me from Jake. I do my best to cast Jake an apologetic look, but Dad places a hand on my back and leads me away.

  “Everything okay, Dad?”

  He squirms, twisting his neck against the top button of the dress shirt I bought him for Father’s Day. He’s already shed the new tie. “Everything’s great, baby. I just wanted you to myself for a second. I’m so proud of you, little girl. You know that? Most people wouldn’t have been able to do what you did up there today. Not after . . .”

  “Dad.”

  “No, Elle. I’m serious. You were . . . heck, kid, you were . . .” His eyes glaze over. “You remind me so much of your mom.”

  The thought makes my throat tight. He’s been talking about Mom a lot lately. A lot.

  “I wish I remembered her.”

  He sniffs. “Come on. There’s someone I want you to meet.”

  The woman Dad steers me toward is dressed in a designer pencil skirt and a starched white blouse. A red belt cinches everything together over an impossibly small waist. She’s older than I am, by a decade probably, but she’s got that racially ambiguous beauty thing going for her, all olive skin and caramel eyes.

  Standing here in our community center she looks far too . . . expensive. Her black heels alone retail for seven hundred and fifty dollars. I know that because my ankles were featured in the ad campaign for them last summer. They place her a good three inches taller than I am, which bothers me for some reason. The euphoric state I’ve been reveling in fades as we step closer. My toes squirm in my ballet slippers.

  My repulsion surprises me.

  Am I intimidated by her?

  I don’t think so. I’ve done the model thing dozens of times, been surrounded by hundreds of gorgeous women. I know what intimidation is, and this feels different. Maybe it’s the haughty look on her face, or the way her eyes keep flitting to my father.

  I scratch at my empty wrist, wishing with everything in me that I could see this woman with celestial eyes.

  “Sorry, Keith. No beer,” she says, handing Dad a glass of punch.

  “Of course there isn’t,” he says, yanking at his collar. The sloppy motion pulls my attention off the woman and back to Dad. I’m irritated that he wasn’t kinder to Jake, but I have to admit that he looks rather dashing in his suit—or would if he’d stop trying to crawl out of it. “Baby, this is Olivia Holt.”

  Ah, Olivia. The Olivia.

  “Liv is fine,” she says.

  “I’m Brielle,” I say, extending my hand to the stranger. Her grip is cold, clammy. A startling contrast to the collected demeanor she exudes. “How did you two meet?”

  “Just met her. Turns out Liv here is the one who saved the day. Swooped in at the witching hour.”

  Somehow that’s not too hard to believe. I release her hand and resist the urge to wipe mine on my tights. “I’ve heard about you, of course. Kaylee’s convinced you hung the moon.”

  “I’m impressed with your friend Kaylee,” Olivia says. “She’s done a noteworthy job here.”

  Olivia Holt’s not wrong. With the Peace Corps taking forever to get back to Kaylee on her application, she decided she needed a project to take her mind off the wait. The Stratus Community Center was nothing but a rental hall before Kaylee petitioned the city council and gained permission to organize programs and seek out volunteers. And she did it all while juggling graduation and final exams and everything else that comes with the last semester of high school.

  But there was little money, and the center was falling apart.

  Enter Olivia Holt and the Ingenui Foundation.

  “Kay’s awesome,” I say.

  Olivia turns her attention back to Dad, closing me out of the circle. I bristle at the snub, but I’m more intrigued by the fact that Dad hardly notices. Olivia asks about his job and the state of the economy here in Stratus. He tells her things are rough, wiping his mouth with the sleeve of his suit jacket. Classy.

  “The foundation could lift some of the strain, Keith. We have resources,” she says, placing a freshly manicured hand on Dad’s bicep.

  Is she flirting? With my dad?

  My head spins at the thought, and I lose track of the conversation. Dad’s dated here and there, but always women I knew. Always women from town and never anything serious.

  “Brielle’s getting ready to head off to college, right, baby? Dance scholarship.”

  My stomach clenches. I avoid his gaze and smile as sweetly as I can at Olivia.

  “Oh, congratulations. I do envy you.” Her eyes drift off. “College was one of the happier times in my life.”

  There’s a break in the crowd, and I catch sight of Miss Macy. Talk about saving the day. She winks at me and tilts her chin toward the stage.

  “Excuse me. I’ve got a little thing to do.”

  “Don’t let me keep you,” Olivia says, waving my dismissal. “Your dad and I can figure out how to pass the time. I’m sure of it.”

  They laugh, Dad’s face turning fire-truck red. “Break a leg, baby.”

  Anybody’s leg? The thought flies through my head unchecked. Dad’s voice carries across the gym floor as I make for the stage. He’s stammering a bit, bragging on me. To Olivia. He tells her about all the colleges I’ve been accepted to. About the dance scholarship from that “fancy school on the East Coast.”

  He doesn’t tell her about my doubts. That the idea of leaving makes me ill. He doesn’t tell her, because he thinks it’s nothing but jitters. Cold feet. He thinks if he keeps talking about it, I’ll feel better about leaving Stratus for school.

  To pursue dance. Again. ’Cause that turned out so great the first time.

  Jake materializes out of the crowd and slides his hand into mine. “Where’d Jessica Rabbit come from?”

  “That’s Olivia Holt,” I say.

  “Kaylee’s favorite person in the world, Olivia Holt?”

  “Yup.”

  “I assumed she was just one big checkbook,” he says.

  Wouldn’t that be nice?

  “Everything okay with your dad?”

  I blow a hair out of my face. “I guess. He keeps pushing college.”

  We take a good seven steps before Jake says anything.

  “It’s worth considering, Elle.”

  Three more steps.

  “I know.”

  Jake stops and turns me toward him. “We’re still on for tomorrow, right?”

  “Yes, absolutely.”

  “Good. ’Cause I have a surprise.”

  My mind flies to the shiny black chest in Jake’s house. The one the Throne Room uses to communicate with Canaan. It’s cut from some sort of glorious-looking onyx and inside it sits a diamond engagement ring. My engagement ring.

  I shake off the thought. It’s too soon. We’re too young.

  And if Dad gets his way, I’m leaving town.

  I start walking again, pulling Jake with me.

  “Another surprise?” I ask, gesturing to the tutu he’s now holding. “What can compete with that?”

  “Well, it can’t, right? I mean, this thing is orange. And sparkly.”

  We’re at the stage now. Miss Macy is there, prodding a wayward fairy princess back up the stairs.

  “Whenever you’re ready for that lesson,” I say, “you slide that tutu back on, okay?”

  “Bu-arf,” Kaylee says, pushing past me and grabbing the waist of my skirt. “Stop being so dreamy, Jake Shield. Twinkle Toes has a show to do.”

  “I’ll be here,” Jake says, “holding my tutu.”

  “And my heart,” I tell him, as theatrically as I can muster.

  “I really am going to vomit.” Kaylee shoves me, and I slide toward our
little dancers, all fidgeting and waving at the crowd. I take my place at stage right. Miss Macy takes stage left. Feedback screams through the speakers as Kaylee turns on her microphone.

  “Sorry, sorry,” she says. “Again, I can’t thank you all enough for coming. So many of you helped get this place open again. You donated your time to teach workshops. You helped sandbag the place when the rains got to be too much. And then, when it looked like safety concerns were going to shut us down, Miss Holt stepped in and kept the dream alive.”

  The room fills with applause. Olivia smiles and waves it off.

  Is her arm looped through Dad’s?

  “Seriously, Miss Holt, it’s been a ride and a half, but we couldn’t have done it without you, without the foundation. Please pass our thank-yous on to the board.” Kaylee takes a sip of water, spilling half of it down her shirtfront. “So, behind me, right? What’s all this dancing about? Well! Miss Macy’s Dance Studio has agreed to offer a few classes here at the center free of charge.” She pauses. “You should totally be clapping right now. Miss Macy’s is one of the premier”—air quotes around premier—“dance studios in Oregon. She suggested that an introductory class here at the center would allow more of our kids to participate in the arts. You’re clapping, right? Yes? Clapping?”

  The crowd obeys, bursting into rambunctious applause yet again. I shake my head in amazement. Standing here on the stage, watching Kaylee in her element, I find Miss Holt is not the only one impressed by my friend. The girl may be clumsy, but she’s great at rallying people.

  “Miss Macy has brought one of her classes here to show you what they can do. After the performance, please take a minute to visit the other art rooms to see all that your support has made possible. Thank you, thank you for coming.”

  Feedback screeches through the speakers yet again before the microphone can be silenced. After an agonizingly long pause, the “Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy” begins. The room fills with oohs and ahhs as our little ladies sashay right and left, adding a spin here and there as whim would have it. Miss Macy and I do our best to keep our dancers onstage—a task far more exhausting than my own performance earlier but equally as rewarding.

  When at last the song is over and the parents collect their children, I grab my bag and slip into the restroom. I trade my leotard, tights, and skirt for jean shorts and a green flouncy top. Then I hop on the counter and pull my duffel bag onto my lap. I dig around until I find the halo. It’s near the bottom, tucked inside a legwarmer, warm and waiting.

  I slip it onto my wrist and pull a light sweater over it. It’s warm out, and the halo’s sure to make me warmer, but Dad gives me grief every time he sees it.

  “High school boys don’t give their girlfriends gold bracelets, Elle.”

  “Sure they do.”

  “Not bracelets like that, kiddo.”

  I had no response to that.

  My skin soaks up the halo’s presence, and I lean against the mirror. Today was a good day. A very good day.

  So why do I feel like I’ve been socked in the stomach?

  Someone knocks on the door, and I jump.

  “Coming. Sorry.” I slide off the counter and twist the doorknob. “Sorry, I was—” The door swings open, Olivia Holt on the other side. “I was changing.”

  All at once, I know exactly why I feel like I’ve been punched in the gut.

  “Not a problem,” she says. I step out of her way and into the hall. “A girl without a wardrobe change could never be the belle of the ball, right?”

  She tilts her head at me, scrutinizing me from beneath those long—probably fake—lashes.

  “Your dad, Keith . . .”

  “I know my dad’s name.”

  “Of course. He tells me you’re multitalented. Modeling, right? And some acting.”

  I heft my bag higher on my shoulder. “Not so much anymore.”

  She taps her teeth with a red fingernail. “Shame. The foundation’s looking to do some publicity in the near future. I wonder if I could convince you to help us out with some print work, maybe a commercial or two?”

  She’s not the first one to ask. My agent’s called no less than a billion times over the past several months. I tell Olivia the same thing I tell Susie.

  “I don’t think so. Dance is really my thing. I can get you the numbers of a few girls in Portland who might be interested, though.”

  She shrugs off my offer. “Models in the city are easy enough to come by, but I’d like the opportunity to work with you.” She produces a business card. “Take it. If you change your mind, give me a call.”

  I don’t want her business card. I don’t plan to change my mind. Still, politeness demands I take it. But the minute her fingers touch mine, I jerk away. The halo flames red-hot against my wrist—angry hot.

  Her face pales and her caramel eyes narrow.

  She felt it too. She balls her hand into a fist but leaves it hanging there, the business card wrinkled.

  “Probably just static electricity,” she whispers. “This dry weather and all.” But her eyes are on my hand, and I have a sick feeling, like I’ve just given up a friend’s secret. I slide both arms behind my back and twine my fingers together.

  “There,” she says, placing the card on the bathroom counter. “Don’t want another shock, do we?” And then she takes a step back and grabs the door. “I’d appreciate you taking the card, Brielle. Just in case.”

  But I leave the card on the counter and walk away.

  Because she’s right.

  Another shock is the last thing we need.

  3

  Pearla

  Pearla watches the demon chained to the floor. He struggles to stand as the Fallen assembled round about bite and snap at him from a distance.

  The Fallen are a species who eagerly devour their own kind. Cannibalism, the humans call it. Yes, they specialize in cannibalism. Only here, in the depths of hell, the beings are spirit. Not flesh and blood. And death doesn’t come easily to spirit beings.

  The chewing lasts for ages.

  But the blistering, smoking wounds on this one weren’t inflicted by another demon. The Fallen don’t use fire as a weapon. They fear it. The demon waiting below is nursing wounds that could only have come from the pit.

  The abyss.

  The eternal fire created for the devil and his angels.

  Pearla’s seen it—navigated the cavern on occasion. It’s a place that cannot damage her. When the Prince’s stronghold was formed, the Creator confined the celestial light that was displaced to a chasm just beyond the black walls of Abaddon. There holy fire reflects itself eternally, magnifying in that ever-brightening divide.

  The pit is a glorious thing to the angels of light. It is God’s goodness multiplied. But for those who chose darkness, the abyss is feared above all. Because even the Fallen heal.

  Angelic beings are eternal; regardless of the damage they sustain, their spiritual bodies cannot be destroyed. Those sent to the abyss for punishment are burned by the Father’s radiance again and again, only to spontaneously adapt and scar, healing in their own twisted way to be singed and charred once more.

  It’s hell.

  And ironic, really. The very thing that energizes Pearla and the other angels of light is devastation to their adversaries. All because of a choice they made long ago. A choice none of them has the capacity to regret.

  Pearla has surfed the abyss, searching for answers, for clues. She’s watched the Fallen count their time there in licks of flame, wondering, between screams of misery, when and if the Prince will summon them from its cavernous depths.

  Silence consumes the assembly now, imposed on them by the sight of an icy white figure dropping into the hall from above. His wings, spread wide, are white, save the tips, which retain a char he’s never rid of.

  Black-tipped wings for the Prince of Darkness. Healthy wings. Strong wings. His skin shines like polished marble. His hair lies in curls of midnight around his face—still fresh, still b
right, still retaining the beauty that seduced a third of the angels. Human eyes would have a hard time distinguishing the Prince from a Warrior like Michael. But the absence of light behind those pale blue eyes hints at the creature’s true nature. And they are pale, so pale the blue seems buried far below, glinting like coins at the bottom of a well.

  He’s exquisite. Majestic.

  And he’s afraid.

  Celestial light has been banned from this place, but even here among the arctic shadows, fear cannot hide. Its blackness swirls in a controlled spin down his right arm, over his well-formed bicep, around his elbow, circling around his forearm, and sliding from his palm down his middle finger where it puddles beneath his throne. Tendrils branch out across the stone floor seeking, seeking.

  He cups his hand, allowing the fear to pool there. His fingers close around the sticky substance and he prods it, molds it like a human child playing with a handful of clay. All the while, his eyes rip into the demon before him.

  After a slow descent, the Prince’s feet touch upon the seat of his throne—the graven dragon behind him. His legs and waist are wrapped in cords of white. His torso and arms are bare. Very little separates him from the other archangels. And yet so much.

  Pearla watches the Prince. The Creator gave him beauty—a beauty unrivaled—and he’s taken great pains to preserve it. His time here in Abaddon has kept him from the damage his hordes have suffered in the light of the Celestial. Pearla’s heard stories of the Prince venturing above, but his untarnished appearance alone is proof that his time to heal greatly exceeds that of his minions.

  “Sit.” His celestial lips are still, unable to vocalize anything but animalistic rages—like those assembled, like the demon chained to the floor, like every angel he led astray—but they all hear. They all obey. It’s sad, really. His song, like his face, was far superior to all others. Now his mouth is good for nothing.

  Wings rustle and talons scratch as countless demons crawl and flap toward rough shelves cut into the cliffs surrounding the hall. The demon chained to the floor drops to his knees.